what do i value?

Lord, I feel completely spent. Confused. I know life is suppose to make me tired. Life done right is hard work. But that's just it. I don't think I'm doing it right. I really want You to zero me in on what You want for me to concentrate on. There are so many needs out there and like Jesus could find direction from You each morning when it might not have made sense to anyone else...I want to have that kind of relationship with you. I want to be completely in tune with You. Yesterday when those cars facing Orlando were just sitting on I-4 as we past them heading to Lakeland I thought of You. Those people had no idea what was holding them up. Some were still going at a decent pace with no clue that they would not be getting anywhere on time today...but we knew...we saw the huge truck turned over in the middle of the interstate...and that's YOU everyday, every second...so what I value the very MOST is my relationship with you. I get scattered so quickly and I'm trying to do this and that and I end up not doing any one thing WELL.
Lord, I value my relationship with you...not only for the direction that comes from walking with You, but for the peace You bring...for the transformation You bring about in me. I want to be like You and here is the best advice I've found..."If I am going to be like Him, then God in His grace must do it, and the sooner I come to recognize it the sooner I will be delivered from another form of bondage.Throw down every endeavor and say, I cannot do it, the more I try the farther I get from His likeness. What shall I do? Ah, the Holy Spirit says, you cannot do it; just withdraw; come out of it. You have been in the arena, you have been endeavoring, you are a failure, come out and sit down, and as you sit there, behold Him, look at Him. Don't try to be like Him. just look at Him. JUST BE OCCUPIED WITH HIM. Forget about trying to be like Him. Instead of letting that fill your mind and heart, let Him fill it. Just behold Him, look upon Him through the Word. Come to the Word for one purpose and that is to meet the Lord. Not to get your mind crammed full of things about the sacred Word, but come to it to meet the Lord, make it to be a medium, not a Biblical Scholarship, but of fellowship with Christ. Behold the Lord." ~Norman Douty
So, Lord, as much as I want your leading, peace and wisdom as I live my life...and as much as I know that You are the ONLY source for those things...let me just behold You. Let my motive in coming to You each morning and all through the day, be first to just behold You in your glory and might. It is amazing that YOU are waiting for me each day!


So how will it look Lord? How should I spend my time with You?

• getting up at 5:15 most mornings
• prayer as I read through a Proverb
• the Green Letters
• WOL QT
• Scripture Memory
• Have notes ready
• Have my planner with me to go through each day
• Feminine Appeal in the evenings before bed
  

Lord, I want my relationship with You to be what I truly value most. I want it to be fresh and vibrant...so as I commit to these daily disciplines will you keep me fresh? Please, Lord.